This is how I feel most of the time . . . |
1. The taste. A friend asked me what it tasted like. I'm leaning between pesticide, an ashtray or the garbage bin after a week in the sun.
2. The fact the taste doesn't appear until about 15 minutes after the spray. So you're there thinking, that wasn't so bad. Then 'bang', aforementioned taste
3. The stupid song that is the alarm on my phone every 12 hours. (I know I can change it, but this is my stupid list.)
4. The fact I now seem to forget everything. Everything. Like simple words. And how to do subtraction. Today I brought a coffee with me into my study. Without any water or milk in it (but the teaspoon was still there)
5. The acne. Which turned out to really be my imminent period, but I'm blaming synarel
6. How hard it is to spell synarel
7. The mood swings. I feel like I'm harbouring seven dwarfs of moods in me at the moment - so far this last week I've had visits from Sleepy, Grumpy, Weepy, Snappy and Happy.
8. People who tell me that I shouldn't complain about synarel
9. Feeling like I'm not me anymore.
10. Insecurity over whether I'm doing it right or not. This morning, I pressed on the spray and got nothing - no sound, no spray, no liquid. So I did a check in the sink and repeated the dose successfully. But now I'm worried that maybe the first one did work and the second one is an overdose and I'm probably going to die . . .
11. The looks on people's faces every morning at work. The 'oh shit, what horror is she going to inflict on us today look'
The good thing about Synarel?
My period came on Thursday, so there now is an end in sight for the synarel
Image from Flickr
that sounds awful. you'd think they'd come up with a way of making it taste better :(
ReplyDeleteour mantra while doing gross fertility-stuff was "means to an end, means to an end, means to an end..." it helped, because it wasn't cheerful and happy, but it kept us focussed on the outcome.
having said that, our gross fertility stuff wasn't as gross as yours is, so i can't really compare... :-/
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